I can see something romantic and be like, wow, I'd want that. And then I can think about all the baggage and crap that goes into a relationship, so I'm like no. Then, I realize what I already have and just with that the world would be a little bit more receptive of my neediness and just give back. At least I don't think I'm asking for much.
That and... I don't really know how to approach a room switch, or any of the random crap that will happen to me this semester. But I'm using the word "organic" as a defense to waiting to worry about it until the time comes. I hope that's what living in the now entails. Why worry now. Why overplan. Why set yourself up for failure and disappointment. Let's just say I thought about it, okay?
Pro, closer to friends. Con, no longer a member of the freshman floor. Pro, a productive graduation in the social ladder. Con, no more hot RAs. Pro, quieter floor. Con, quieter floor. Pro, suitemates that matter. Con, neutral roommate. Pro, no more annoying roommate. Con, no one to secretly make fun of and make myself feel superior. Pro, no more annoying PA to address to. Con, no more solitary shelter from reality. Pro, the enjoyment of my own room. Con, the enjoyment of my own room. Pro, friends available more often. Con, moving and effort required. Pro, I wanted it to happen some time. Con, it's only three fourths good. Pro, geekish roommate. Con, prankster. Pro, I got what I wished for. Con, I got what I wished for.
And speaking of wishes... I told Jay, the first time I wished for something, I got it. I said I wanted to meet a person that was as dumb as me. But now that I'm in some semi-regret mode, I say that I should have been more specific. So I'm like, Jay, should I wish for something again and be more specific or just not say anything?
Posted by Mark Canlas at February 7, 2003 05:29 AM