Digital Feng Shui

I, The Snap Dragon.

I don't understand why I treat groups of people differently. It basically comes down to my family, my friends, and then the Them, the Awesome Them. I... I treat the Them like gods. I treat Them (and capitalize Them) the way people should be treated. As it should be. And then I have some of my friends who I feel aren't quite at level with me... It's odd. Why do I have to treat my friends differently from Them? Don't my friends merit the same type of treatment? Of course, yes. But for some reason it doesn't come out that way. And I always think it's about my reception of their actions. The They treat me one way, I treat Them with an awesome standard back. My friends treat my another way (not necessarily bad, but just different conduct) and I extend my own, similar courtesy although not quiet at par with the Them style. That sucks. And especially with my parents. The Them has taught me to exercise respect throughout all that I do but I don't give my parents nearly as much as they should receive. But I blame that on reception too. Maybe my parents are doing so many non-They things that I just can't be the Good Child. I'm the Ungrateful Son. And my relatives are in-house as well. My behavior must reflect so badly upon me and my parents. That's retarded. The They has also taught me to suck it up and extend respect always. I even try doing that to my parents but sometimes I just snap back at them. And they snap at me. And so forth. I can't suck it up because it just keeps happening. It... I blame it on reception. I just can't naturally do it. I try... Sometimes. But... It just isn't all there. It's a group thing. It's sucks that I basically have to work on this by myself... Why can't the whole world be as chill as They are... Is the They the ultimate display of bonding and respect? Or is my view of reality completely warped? I dunno...

Oh by the way I did have the passing thought of ignoring roles and treating people as members of the Them but it just turns out they never fit the roll... People always commit to things that the They would never do. Or at least I think so...