I feel as if now would be a great time to opt for a very quiet, still, and cold and meditative form of life. That, I really need to focus and be still. It'll go something like this.
My room will be the meditation chamber, and there will be no life outside of doing what I need to do. No one will be at my side. No one.
Very still, very cold, and very objective. This would probably be my only method of recovery, because feeling anything right now is too clouded and too busy.
But if I do this, I might hurt more people in the process. But I do make one wish. And not necessarily a wish like before, but a wish of... For the world to be psychic. For those who truly wait the two extra seconds to know me... To know me for me, and to know me for my intent. You will all be very far away from me, but you will always be close in my mind (not heart).
So, if provided my will to procrastinate doesn't create some higher biological order, may this day be the first day of a most prolonged meditation, to which I will meet each goal as necessary, but no one, and I mean no one, will stand with.
Posted by Mark Canlas at August 5, 2004 10:10 PM