When I take a serious look at myself, one plausible theory about the way I act or fail to interact with others is that I simply... haven't grown up. That is to say, I havenly mentally or emotionally or socially (whatever) developed at the same rate as other kids/people.
Here's the weird thing, though. I somewhat don't care. More of... I value youth. I kept telling myself that. No matter how old I get, I will always value the characteristic of youth. I know youth in and of it self doesn't mean anything, like a whole slew of things in the world, but it can imply something. Today, I pondered... It implies to me the purity of thought (as opposed to Starcraft's purity of essence and/or form).
Kids, children, young people... Whoever. I think they have purity of thought. Because I know from experience and just random thingies that adults get... To summarize, jaded? Everything gets more serious. I can feel it coming. I can't hang out with Sigma or whoever anymore... But I'd love to!
The whole responsibility crap... It's seriousness. It's a blockade to a dream. But who dreams a lot? Children.
Oh man, if children had the proper ammo... The intelligence... Purity of thought and experience.
I don't ever want my purity of thought to go away. I want to be forever young, in at least that sense. Oh yeah and young people (compared to old people) look hotter too.
I haven't grown up. But I value youth.
Oh yeah and I forgot to mention. I've always valued being the youngest in a group. I love that feeling.
Posted by Mark Canlas at March 12, 2005 08:20 PM