Today, while doing nothing, I had a thought... Maybe we can't be friends anymore.
Why. Why would I say such a thing.
You changed. That's about it... And I don't like change. =) Umm... So yeah, I was wondering, can people really stop being friends just because of change? Immediately I thought of mass murder, because I'm sure that's rubicon enough for the common man. And we, as great as we are, I'm pretty sure we're of the comman man.
So you. You changed. A whole great deal in my opinion. I used to look up to you even. And now...? I dunno. Not so much maybe, to tell you the truth. And the truth is what it's all about. No need to run through any delusions... Unless you want happiness. Because happiness... Is about delusions.
Anyway... With all this change, I guess I've changed too. Maybe I should put blame squarely on your end. But I just gotta say... We're different. The world is different. And I miss us. We're definitely not the same.
So, should I keep working at it and cope with the change? Probably. But those golden days are over. They definitely are. But who's to say that they can't come back? Optimistic words like that is what we used to share. Now, we barely share anything. I feel aliented, actually. Aliented all the time. But then again, don't I get that feeling from everybody?
Maybe I'm just an attention whore, like my dog. I feel all silly and stupid when people don't pay any mind to me... =(
Uhh... But yeah. At the very least, I thought about it. And thinking... Is a whole great deal. To me.
Posted by Mark Canlas at May 30, 2005 06:31 PM