I'm embarrassed. Embarrassed that I'm not really measuring up as well as I'd like to against my peers. Embarrassed that I haven't been writing as much as I wanted to. Embarrassed that I have an unending mountain of stuff I'd like to do, but never really get to it.
I'm particularly embarrassed that I was brought back to a time... Where... Apparently, in all my wisdom, I put everything out on a piece of paper. Just laid out my heart and mind and made myself completely vulnerable. And then gave that piece of paper away for someone to read.
Honestly, I thought I put it beyond me... But uhh, it's still there, in that person's mind (heart?) I guess. And on my hard drive. I don't even feel like reading it... But I know I should. I should be brave and all that BS/jazz. It's crazy how much I've grown and changed. And how little has changed also.
I've seen it before, and I've seen it again, but this time it's my turn to post it.
Yo, I'm from Jersey. I curse... a lot. I say dawg, son, yo, and B...a lot. It's also a sub, not a hero or a hoagie. The diner is a natural end to a good night out. I know that a bagel is a helluva lot more than just a roll with a hole in the middle.I never had school on Rosh Hashanah or Yom Kippur. I know how to drive... and tailgate. NYC is THE CITY. I sure as hell dont pump my own gas. I know what real pizza tastes like-& know that getting a pie means pizza, not apple or cherry. All parties end with a fight. I don't go to the beach-I go down the shore. I judge people by what exit they are off the parkway or turnpike. I know 65mph really means 80. When someone cuts me off, they get the horn and the finger & expect it. I dont wear red or blue cuz i know being caught in the wrong hood with those colors on will get u shot. I'm from JERSEY and I fuckin love this place.